Almost a new year...

Well, it's the last day of 2010 and of course we all know what that means....resolutions!!  I am not sure if I really have a New Year Resolution or if I am just going to make the decision to become healthy.  I think that like so many resolutions, it will be gone before the week is over...instead, I am going to make sure that everyday I remember that this is not just a once a year thing, but a lifelong continuing thing. 

New Years Eve is not my favourite day of the year (simply because I can't be bothered to stay up that late for something that is over in under a minute!!), but this year I just might go out, have some fondue, visit with some people...at my GRANDMAS house!!!!  How's that for partying!!!  As funny as that seems, it really should be a good time...my parents, aunts/uncles, grandparents, kids, cousins all having some deepfried tidbits of food and playing games....that's my kind of a party!  Before the consumtion of all this food (oh, did I mention the chocolate fondue for dessert??) I have a date with some friends at the gym this morning and a good dose of house cleaning should burn off some extra calories. 

This morning when I got up, I stripped down and stood on the scale, saying a silent prayer as I watched the numbers appear on the floor...down another pound!!  Hooray for me - two down, 38 to go!!!  Once again, could be water loss, but once again, I'll take it!!  My parents were here yesterday and when they come my Mother tends to cook good food and bake with my kids...this visit was no different!! 
She baked Nutella Brownies with my five year old - here is the recipe:
http://www.finecooking.com/recipes/nutella-fudge-brownies.aspx (just make sure you don't over bake them...take them out at 10 minutes when they still seem a little wet).  They are soooooooo good, and since they are mini it makes it easy to just have a few and be satisfied.  For supper we had perogys - made with my butter and cream sauce - so good!!  I have also cut back on my addiction to Iced Tea (the sugary kind) and have cut back from approx. 6 beer mugs per day to 1 or 2 per day!!

Well, I will sign off here as I need to take my kids to see their grandma so i can go work out at the gym!!  I will talk to you all next year!

Happy New Year!

SJ

Day two....a success aleady!

Woke up this morning and jumped on the scale...down one pound!!  I know some would say it's just water loss, but I will take it - I'll take anything!!  Yesterday, my first day of my journey, was a big one for me...I went to the gym, made a real supper for my family for the first time in a long time and only ate what I should eat, when I should eat!  Oh, and I drank lots of water!! 

I think I will try to get to the gym again today and of course I will keep up the eating habits I started yesterday.  I will NEVER again try a diet, count calories or points, pay for someone to tell me how much I should be eating...I will just use my common sense and follow the Canada Food Guide and see where this journey takes me!!  Hopefully that will be right into my jeans I have in my closet that I haven't been able to get on in five years!! 

I will sign off here and go make myself some good, healthy breakfast and start my day right!

SJ

First day of the rest of my life...

I am not sure how I got to this point...don't kid yourself, of course I know!  I got to this point by eating everything in sight!  Christmas 2010 has just passed and over a course of a week, I consumed four boxes of chocolates, two turkey dinners, fresh from the oven buns (I lost count of those), turkey leftovers, one dozen chocolate peanut butter cups made by a good friend, and so much more that I can't even remember!!  This is nothing new for me - I have been stuffing my face for as long as I can remember! 

I have this knack of thinking that I actually look okay though even after putting on another ten pounds...it's like being a fat anorexic...what you see in the mirror is completely different than what everyone else sees!  I relized it last night after I went to the gym (yay for me) for the second times in months!!  I went to a department store to try on some winter jackets and had two things happen to me:

1. I had the chance to see myself in a full length mirror...in my workout gear!!

2. I had to try on jackets that were far bigger in size than I have ever had to before!

Reality set in at that point...I am FAT!!  I left that department store last night and sat in my truck thinking about how depressing it is that I couldn't even fit into the XL jackets and how I must, must, must do something about this issue.  I made the very concious decision that I would then eat all twelve of the chocolate peanut butter cups my friend had just given me...how sick is that?

That was 15 hours ago...that was yesterday...that was the past...this is the present, the future, my life.

From this point forward I will only get smaller and I will not buy that new winter jacket until I can fit into a much smaller size!  I have 40 pounds to lose...that will take me to what I was when I got married, when I only had one child, not the four I have now, when I could fit into a size 12 pant, when my boobs were a C cup...that will take me to where I want to be.

I look forward to this journey in my life - to saying good-bye to 40 pounds!

SJ