Saturday, December 31, 2011

The End

It has been one full year, plus one day, since I started this blog.  In the last year I have learned many new things about myself.  The biggest thing that I have learned is acceptance.

I have learned to accept who I am and what I am.  I know that I might have a few (okay, so many) more pounds on my frame than I did 10 years ago, but I have also learned that my weight is not what defines me.  I have learned that my friends really don't care what size my clothing is, they like me for me - imagine that!!  I have learned that I am a strong woman with points of view that are not always the same as those around me, but that is okay because they are mine.  I have learned that I play a very important role in the lives of many people and that I am greatly appreciated for those roles.  I have learned that my children do not need to be involved in extra-curricular activities at such young ages to grow and blossom - what they get from school and home is enough.  I have learned to stop and smell the roses.

I look so forward to this next year.  My oldest child is ready to spread her wings and fly (sob, sob) and my youngest child is no where near even stepping foot outside the nest! 

Life is grand, I will embrace this next year and all it has in store for me.

Happy New Year!

SJ

Friday, December 9, 2011

It's my day!

Today I am 35 years old! 

I am not scared to grow old, with the exception of looming death, I am quite excited to grow up and grow old!  I don't feel any older today than I did a month ago, or even a year ago.  The only physical trait that proves I am getting older is the fact that I have a handful of grey hairs - actually the are stark white...I call them my "Vitiligo hairs".  I am not afraid of my hair turning grey/white, I am going to embrace it and not an ounce of hair dye will hit this head! 

Today for my birthday I have asked Greg that we do nothing.  I don't want a party, don't want a cake, don't want to go out for supper.  I simply want to watch a movie and eat some chips tonight!  Those who are close to me and know me best may be shocked by those facts!  Five years ago, for my 30th birthday, I threw myself a grand party!  My mom made me the best ever birthday cake - an Aerosmith cake!!!  I had all my friends and family there and I loved it!  Five years later, I have one more kid and a job and quite frankly, I am tired!! 

I am having a lovely day so far, thankful for all the wonderful birthday wishes from family and friends.  There is nothing like a birthday to make a person feel loved!

For anyone in my life who might think that what I said before about being tired and not wanting to do anything will continue in the future...just a heads up that if five years when I turn 40 I want a HUGE party!!!!!!!!!!!!

SJ

Friday, December 2, 2011

Jump!

Gym class was my least favourite time of the day in school; working out at a gym has never lasted more than about three weeks; exercise videos have made a killing off of me, but have never seen the inside of a DVD player.  Needless to say, I am not big on exercise or sports - perhaps that's why the scale never seems to go down!  I decided just a few minutes ago, after eating yet another handful of yummy walnuts (and some fudge and some butter crackers and, well you get the point) that I would try some form of exercise that could be done while four little children and a golden retriever ran around the room with me in the middle of it...I decided on Jumping Jacks! 

Here is what I learned from doing Jumping Jacks in my living room:

1. I need a sports bra if I want to do any kind of jumping!

2. My stomach actually bounces when I do!

3. I might need to talk to my doctor about my weak bladder soon!!

Good thing they don't require adults to go to gym class, but maybe, just maybe they should!

SJ 

Wednesday, November 30, 2011

Baby, please don't grow up! (Happy 4th Birthday Will)

4 years ago today, November 30 2007, my baby was born!  Will Gregory Johnston weighed in at 9 lbs. 9 oz.

I have written and re-written this post three times now, trying to tell the story of Will's many complications in his first few months of life.  No way I tell the story seems quite right, so I am going to give a very condensed version and you might want to Google some of the words (I will put them in bold print).

During Will's birth he had Shoulder Dystocia which caused him to be born not breathing and blue!  His APGAR scores were 1 at one minute and 3 at five minutes (not looking good!).  After three days of monitoring in the hospital, he was released and given a clean bill of health!  At his two month immunizations we found out that he had Plagiocephaly caused by Torticollis, which was caused by the shoulder dystocia (are you still following?).  We had to take him to physiotherapy for most of his first year and during his second visit there the pediatric occupational therapist came in and told us that she believed he had Cerebral Palsy!  Our world was rocked!  As we struggled to come to terms with this new revelation, he needed to go to the head clinic at the Stollery Children's Hospital in Edmonton to be fitted for a DOC band aka helmet because of his plagiocephaly.  When we arrived there we were told by an OT that we needed to see a neurosurgeon immediately because she believed that his skull plates were fusing too soon!  One more thing to shake us up a little!  The doctor said that was not the case, just a severe case of plagiocephaly and he needed the DOC band asap!!  We had him fitted and for the next four months we took him to Edmonton regularly to have it checked re-sized.  As for the cerebral palsy, we saw specialists who told us that he did NOT have it but we new something wasn't quite right!  Will was about three months delayed in almost everything in the first year, so I made sure he went to physio and OT once a week and had Early Intervention come into our house every couple of weeks to work with Will.  We will never know if it was a all the hard work of the wonderful professionals, myself and Will or just the grace of God, but by Will's first birthday he had caught up and was reaching all the milestones he should have been!  I was still proactive with him and when I noticed some delays in speech, I got him right in to see the speech pathologists.

That is a very condensed version of the roller coaster ride that we were on for that first year, but I want to focus on what Will is now, at four years old! 

Will is the clown in our family, always doing something to make someone laugh!  He is the sweetest little boy I have ever known and loves to call me Mama!!  I call him Baby, which perhaps I should stop, but I know I never will. 

Will is very spoiled, probably because he is the baby of the family, but I think that deep down inside of me I will never forget what could have been.

He amazes me every day with what he knows - he can get apps on my iPhone quicker than me (and the only thing that is saving me from a huge credit card charge is that he doesn't know my password!) and he is a whiz on the computer!  It always amazes me when he says things like: "do you need dot com or dot ca for that one?".

Will doesn't ever want to leave home, not even to go to school...he even dropped out of playschool earlier this Fall!  I don't mind.  I will have him home with me until he goes to Kindergarten in September of 2013! 

Will loves veggies and white milk.

Will loves his stuffed puppy more than anything else in this world (well, except for his Mama!).

Will LOVED his soother soooooo much that it was one of the most painful things I have ever had to put a stop to (and I didn't do it until he was well past three years old)...but every once in a while if he really need it, he still gets it!

Did I mention Will is spoiled and I know it?!

Will hates giving hugs and kisses, but every once in a while he surprises me with a hug (but never a kiss!!)

In honour of Will's 4th birthday, I will list four things that describe Will best:

1. Spoiled rotten

2. Special boy (I bought him a shirt at Bubba Gumps that reads "My Mama Says I'm Special"...that is the perfect shirt for Will in more ways than one!)

3. Big smile!

4. Funny man!

After going through everything we did with Will early in his life, I will never take him for granted and I know we are so blessed to have him with us!

SJ




Will being monitored just after birth

This bear has a heart beat which helps regulate the babies heart beat

Me & Will after coming home

Will's second mother - Grace!

Sweet, sweet boy!

Because every baby deserves an Aerosmith shirt!

Will's first DOC band - 4 months old.  He wore this 23 hours a day...




...even when sleeping!

Will's second DOC band - his head grew so fast he needed a bigger one made!
8 months old


Look at me now!!

2 years old

soother & puppy were always close by

First day of Playschool - 2 weeks before he dropped out!

There's always something funny when Will is around!



HAPPY BIRTHDAY BABY!











Saturday, November 26, 2011

It never fails!

What, you might ask never fails?  The fact that every time I take my children out in public one of them ends up acting like a wild animal!!  Today I had to take Mark into town to take his picture in front of a building in our community (it's a school project), and Greg is at hockey, Natalie at work...so I was left to take all three kids with me!  We went to Webb's Machinery to take some pictures and then headed to the Dollar store to get birthday supplies for Mark & Will's parties.  After that we walked down the street to the drug store where we needed to develop the pictures.  Once we got to the drug store we headed to the get the pictures developed and the entire time I was fighting with the machines I heard a mixture of automated voices telling me to press this, click that, choose this and the voices of my three children begging to sit on my lap, begging me to buy them animal shaped suitcases and giant slippers!  After fighting with two machines, the manager finally took my memory card to his computer and printed me off the two pictures that I needed...and then said they were on the house!!  That was about the one and only bright spot in this story!  While I was fighting with the machines and waiting for pictures to print, I told my kids to go look at the toys (just as a way to get them to stop bugging me) and boy did I regret that decision!  Will found a toy motorcycle that he just had to have!  I told him to put it on his Christmas wish list and put it back on the shelf...he said no!  I told him about three more times and by then he was crying his eyes out and refusing to put it back.  I threatened to spank his bum if he didn't put it back, so he got a spank on the bum and the toy taken away...well, that didn't make him too happy!!!  All the way through the card aisle he cried, all the way through the baking aisle he cried, all the way through the make-up aisle he cried, and then he fell to the floor and just screamed!!!  I was at the till by this time paying for the two other items I had to pick up and told Mark & Grace (who by the way were behaving very well) that yes, they could pick out a treat.  I had two customers behind me as my son screamed at the end of the make-up aisle and my other kids tried to pick out their favourite treats.  I gave the girl my card, and turned to go pick up my screaming kid before I had too many people staring at me!  As I was going to get him, an older lady stopped me and said this to me: "I am so glad you didn't give into him" - my only response to her was "Thank you!" - she then went on to say this (all the while Will's face is turning red from screaming): "It is a sign of good parenting, too many parents feel sorry for the kids".  I am not sure I have ever had such a nice compliment.  I told her I was feeling sorry for everyone else in the store because they had to listen to him!!  After I paid for my stuff I went over and picked Will up off the floor and told them to get ready to go back outside into the cold.  Will had gloves that had to be put on him and let me tell you that it was not an easy thing to get them on while he was melting down!  Apparently I didn't get the gloves on quite right because he screamed all the way back down the street to where we were parked at the Dollar Store!!

My children may never see the inside of a store again at this rate!!

SJ

Wednesday, November 23, 2011

Bubba & Blue Bear turn 8!

Eight years ago today, November 23, 2003 my first baby boy and his bear were delivered!

Mark Tyler Johnston was my first born boy, the biggest of my babies - weighing in at a whopping 10 lbs., 1 oz. - and had to be delivered via emergency c-section after his chin became stuck on my pelvic bone (poor boy) because he was "sunny side up" (face up instead of face down).  Mark also got a special delivery (though nobody could have known just how special that delivery would be), Mark got "Blue Bear" from Grandma & Grandpa Johnston that day; Blue Bear, who is "Grumpy" from the Care Bears, has become Marks most prized possession!

Mark is the only child of mine who was named after Aerosmith (and if you don't already know this about me, I am obsessed with Aerosmith!), with his middle name being "Tyler" after Steven Tyler!  I pushed for the first name Steven, but Greg would only allow me to take it so far!  Mark got his nickname "Bubba" not long after birth, for no real reason...I just started calling him Bubba and it kinda stuck! 

From the day Mark was born we all thought we had a hockey player on our hands, but we couldn't have been farther from the truth!  Mark has NO desire to play hockey, or any sport for that matter (though I have to say that he does enjoy playing in his House Leagues at school and even scored his very first goal in floor hockey a few weeks ago!) and his teacher wrote in his report card that he is Strong Competitor, and that he is improving in his volleyball and soccer skills!  Marks passion in life is drawing and art!  He is VERY good at drawing and would rather sit and draw than pretty much anything else in this world.  He has asked for an electric pencil sharpener for Christmas so he can sharpen his pencils faster and more often!  He has a sketch book that he draws many of his pictures in and I love to just flip through it and see all the different drawings he has done!

Along with drawing, Mark loves to build things.  With those two things under his belt, he already knows that he wants to be an Architect when he grows up!  Last year he wanted to be a "Home Stayer"- aka stay-at-home-man!  Glad that he has loftier goals in life now!  Mark has designed all of his siblings homes for when they grow up, and he has designed his own house in the field right next to our house!

Mark gets along with all most of his siblings quite well, however he is a bit of an instigator and can get all of them screaming when he wants to!  He always has a sly little smile on his face when someone in our house screams!  Mark is not at all helpful around the house, unless I have asked his sister to do something, then just like magic, Mark jumps up and wants to do that exact thing and it just happens to make his little sister scream with fury!!  Funny how that works!

One curious thing about Mark is that he will ONLY wear short sleeve t-shirts and soft pants with NO buttons or zippers!  The only time Mark has worn a "wedding shirt" as he calls dressy or button down shirts, is for a wedding or very special day like Natalie's graduation or a Christmas concert!  One day that I will never forget was Grace's 6th birthday when Mark came walking out in his "wedding shirt" and said that it was a special day that day; that is how I know he really actually does love his little sister!

Mark is a very special little boy who I look so forward to seeing grow into a young man and I can't wait to see what he becomes when he grows up! 

Before I show you some pictures of my little boy, I will describe him using his name:

M: Mama suck

A: Artist

R: REALLY (competitive)

K: Knowledgeable

Happy Birthday Bubba!

SJ

Mark just a couple of hours old

Our first picture as a family of 4

Going home - 3 days old



Mark's first Aerosmith bib - 2 months

Mark's first Aerosmith shirt - 6 months old


 Happy 1st Birthday!

Mark & Blue Bear!

1 1/2 years old

3rd Birthday





Mark LOVES to bake and decorate cakes!
                                                            
                                                              

Mark just being Mark!

Blue Bear - 8 years old
                                                                                    

Mark in his "wedding shirt" for Grace's birthday!
                                                                                   
                                                                   Happy 8th Birthday!


Thursday, November 17, 2011

What goes around comes around!

Here is a little multiple choice quiz for you:

After reading this, my mother will:

A) Laugh her ass off

B) Say "I told you so"

C) Both A & B

My answer is "C"


It's official!  I am my mother!  Today we have a lovely winter storm brewing and my daugther (who is 18, and by all rights and freedoms can do whatever the heck she wants) wanted to go to her friends house this morning.  I told her she could go, but to be careful because the storm was coming.  At about 1:00 p.m. she returned, with her friend in tow and a Future Shop bag in her hand!  Now, if you don't know about the wee little town that I live in (that has only one grocery store), I can tell you this: we DON'T have a Future Shop!!  I lost my mind (this is where I become my mother) because the nearest Future Shop is located 35 minutes down the Trans Canada Highway!!!  If you could have seen my reaction you would know that I was not pleased at all and you know what she said to me??

1) "You don't have to freak out"

2) "I brought you a sausage McMuffin!" 

Number one - I will freak out because if is my God given right as your mother to freak out if I know that you are driving any kind of vehicle, but especially a 1984 Pontiac, down a major highway in the middle of a major winter storm!!!!

Number two - Don't you know I just jumped back on the Weight Watchers wagon and I am NOT going to be tempted by a cold sausage McMuffin (though if it were hot and fresh I would probably fall right off that wagon for a few minutes)!!

I couldn't believe the foolishness of that girl of mine and I couldn't believe that I sounded so much like my mother!!

My mom has said many, many, many, many, many, many, many, etc., times not to go out in "that weather" and just as many times we have said to her: "don't worry", "don't freak out", etc.  I guess what goes around comes around!

SJ

Thursday, October 27, 2011

My baby is legal (at least in Alberta!)

**I would just like to say that I realize this sounds a bit like a eulogy, but it is hard not write in past tense when you are going back 18 years!!**

18 years ago today I was in the greatest pain of my life, not a drug to be had (I still think they did on purpose, as a hard lesson for a young girl to learn), with two hours of intense pushing, she arrived... my beautiful, wonderful, lovely little girl!  Natalie Elizabeth was born on October 27, 1993 weighing in at 7lbs 11 oz.  She was the talk of the high school that day! LOL 

I was very young, 16 years old, but I had the incredible support of my amazing family and I knew that with that, we would be just fine! 

Natalie was quite an easy baby, and even though we have had our moments, she has continued to be an easy child all the way through!  Natalie was never a girly-girl, HATING the colour pink and never really playing with dolls; Her favourite toys were dinosaurs and horses and by the age of three, she knew how to pronounce the name of any dinosaur that ever roamed the earth!  Natalie's very favourite dinosaur of all was the big purple kind...Barney!  She was obsessed with him and anything to do with the show!  I can't tell you how many times I had to hear that song..."I love you, you love me, we're a great big family..."!  There was nothing more important in her world than Barney...well, except maybe Pops!!  Pops is the name my step-dad, Pat, acquired when my nephew, Avery, was little.  My children have never called him anything but Pops!  Pat and Natalie have a very special relationship, probably in my opinion the most important to her.  When Natalie was a baby, Pat took the night shift, getting up in the middle of the night with her, feeding, changing, burping, rocking!  He played such an important role in her life and bonded with her like nobody else was able to.  When Natalie graduated, we were asked to have someone important in their life write them a letter, and I never thought twice to ask Pat to write that important letter to her. 

Natalie started kindergarten young, as an October baby, she was only 4 years old going in, and to this day it is the biggest regret of my life.  She struggled through a lot of school, but the one area she never did struggle with was reading! She was reading shortly into Kindergarten and that was always her strongest attribute in school!  In grade five she was tested for her reading level and she was at a University level!  School was not always easy for Natalie, but this past June she graduated from grade 12 and it was such a proud moment in my life!

Dinosaurs were not the only animal she has loved!  Horses have been her biggest passion in life!  She has always loved horses and had the chance to start riding when she was about 8 years old.  She took lessons in Lloydminster at a stable and when she turned 9, she joined the Vermilion Light Horse 4-H Club.  She rode her Grandpa Scott's horse, Drifter, for quite a few years until she had the chance to use a very special horse named Jett.  Jett belongs to my Aunty Barb and Natalie has had the opportunity to ride Jett for a few years now.  Natalie and Jett have a very special connection, as did Drifter and Natalie.  I know horses will always be a part of Natalie's life and I hope that one day in the future she will have the chance to have a horse to call her own!

Today I will watch my daughter blow out the candles on her 18th birthday cake and with that in mind I will send her off into adulthood with a list of 18 things to always remember...

1. Always be kind to others
2. NEVER DRINK AND DRIVE
3. It's never too late at night to call your mother
4. Respect yourself
5. Follow your dreams, but live in reality
6. Always keep a few Aerosmith songs on your playlist
7. Don't give yourself to just any old boy
8. Pay your bills on time
9. It's okay to eat dessert first
10. CLEAN YOUR ROOM
11. Always listen your instincts
12. Do not wear too much make-up
13. Remember that you are beautiful
14. Remember your little sister and brothers are still looking up to you
15. Always use your manners
16. NEVER DO DRUGS
17. Always be yourself
18. Life's a Journey, Not a Destination

We love you so much Natalie, we are here for you every step of your journey!

Happy Birthday!

SJ




Some of these pictures have been scanned (and I am not very good with technology!), so a few of them seem a little off kilter!


Going home from the hospital
About 6 months old

My very favourite picture of Natalie!












2 years old





Grade 4


Getting ready for a riding competition (about 12 years old)
Natalie & Jett at 4-H Expo









Going for her interview at Boston Pizza







Grad 2011

Grad 2011

Saturday, October 22, 2011

Oops, I did it again!

There are those days in my life when I think the day is going well enough to take my children out in public, but then I do it and I remember why I don't do it very often!!  I had absolutely nothing going on today and I even slept in until 8:30 a.m.!!  The first indicator of what was to come was the fact that Grace was up before me...bad sign!  Since I had nothing to do today and Greg was going out of town, I decided it would be a very good day to take my kids to the store to buy the boys new winter boots...and to go to the hardware store to pick out paint colours for their bedrooms.  Since I am one of those mothers who believe it is very important for children to have input and choices in their world (not huge life changing choices, but choices like paint colour), I decided to leave it completely up to them as to what colour their bedrooms become!  We are having a friend of mine sew some curtains for Mark's bedroom, so I have to see what colour they are going to be (because I let my friend pick out the material) before we pick out paint, but the colour Mark really, really wants is called Wasabi and it is VERY, VERY bright green!!  Grace picked out a very lovely shade of purple and Will had a very hard time deciding on the perfect colour...blue, red, orange, brown, red with orange and blue polka dots, orange with red and brown polka dots...oh, to be three again!  In the end he decided he really, really wanted brown and picked out a nice shade (Mark calls it "Chocolate Bar") and once we get it on the walls I plan to buy some red and blue and maybe orange polka dots to add to the room!  I also bought a nice blue for our main bathroom.  I am not even close to being ready to paint any room and after the day you are about to hear about, it is going to be a few weeks until these rooms look any different!

I really should have listened to my gut and left Grace at home with Natalie, because we hadn't even left the driveway when she started screaming!  I think the first time was about the fact that Mark was touching her.  I told her that I would leave her at home if she didn't smarten up...I should have followed through!  We stopped at the hardware store first and ended up staying there far longer than planned because as soon as we started looking at the paint chips it seemed like all of Vermilion had the same idea!  We had one can tinted when natured called and we all had to go and find the bathrooms!  By the time we got back to the paint area there was a slew of people having paint mixed and since we still had three cans to mix, we had to wait in line!  Apparently hardware stores aren't very exciting for kids!  Mark bugged Grace, Grace whined; Grace wanted to play with Will, Mark all of a sudden wanted to play with Will; I gave Mark my phone just to shut him up, they all wanted my phone!!  I tried to trick them into searching the store for garbage cans but they wouldn't fall for it!  I tried everything!  I guess the lady mixing my paint has seen far worse because she gave my kids balloons because they were "so good"!!  It seemed like forever we were in there and I was ready to go!  By the time we left, my kids were starving!  We went over to Subway to get some lunch and when we walked into that building it felt like we just crossed the border to Mexico!  Here is a little tidbit of info you may not know about me - I HATE the heat, no matter if it is natural heat of forced heat!!!  Apparently, the air conditioning is not working, and it was HOT in there!!  My kids all stripped their jackets off and Grace just kept saying to me: "I'm sooooo thirsty"!  We got out of there as fast as humanly possible and found some benches down the street to eat on.  Will took his sweet time eating his sub and chips and after about 20 minutes of sitting on a bench outside I had to tell him to wrap it up so we could keep going on this adventure of ours!  I guess I should have given him a few more minutes because as soon as we got back to the vehicle to wash Doritos and mustard off my children's faces, a guy walks up to me and says: "Excuse me Ma'am, but one of your kids hit my truck with your door"....are you freakin' kidding me???  I went with him as my Dorito faced children stood on the sidewalk and I rubbed and rubbed his truck with the sleeve of my jacket!  I think he could tell that I was about to the boiling point and I might just snap at any moment so he said it didn't look too bad and not to worry about it!  Once I rubbed it, there really wasn't much of a mark on it.  Our next stop was the department store where we had to buy the boys some boots.  I let them pick out their boots, and as Mark was trying his on, Will decided to play a game of hide-and-seek in a small town department store!  After finding him and threatening him with a spanking if he didn't stop hiding, I sent them downstairs to the toy department...and told them very firmly NOT to ask for a single thing down there!  Once I had paid for the boots and got the kids back upstairs, we headed next door to the drug store.  Will was making an old lady laugh as he was dancing and giggling in front of the securtiy camera, because he could see himself on the monitor!  The kids all tried on Halloween masks, I picked out some Halloween candy for the big day and took the kids to the front of the store to pick out their treats; Mark found his quickly and so did Will, but my sweet, sweet Grace just couldn't find what she was looking for!  I finally had to give her a five second warning to pick something fast because there were other customers waiting, so she picked out some chocolate covered raisins.  We all headed out of the store after one more jig in front of the security camera and walked down the street to our vehicle.  All three of the kids had to sit in the same row today because I had the third row put down and of course there was a whole lot of fighting and screaming as Grace tried to get her seatbelt done up with her big brother just inches away from her!  I think she managed to reach a new note today with her high pitched scream!  As we were driving home, just a few seconds after she had buckled in, she let out a blood curdling scream and didn't let up until we pulled into the driveway...she spilled her chocolate raisins!!  It was one of those moments in life that I actually envisioned what it would be like to just pull over and either drop her off on the side of the road or for me to just simply walk away!  Of course I am not insane, just a little touched, but I would never actually do it...just fantasize about it!  When we finally got home I gave her four little Halloween chocolate bars to make up for her spilled raisins, because even though I have no problem with my children eating food off of the floor, I draw the line at my vehicle floor, and Wal-Mart's floors!  The minute we walked into the house I made her climb into my bed with her blanket and chocolate bars and turn the t.v. on, cause mama could take no more of her today!!

Now that my children have boots and paint, there is no reason to take them out in public anytime soon...except to trick-or-treat, but at least then they are disguised and me acting like a crazy lunatic is acceptable on Halloween night!!

SJ

Sunday, October 9, 2011

Thank you...

It only seems fitting to talk about what I am thankful for this Thanksgiving weekend.  Here is what I am thankful for (in no particular order):

  • my family
  • my husband
  • my children
  • my house (the fact that we have one)
  • my friends
  • Aerosmith
  • food
  • my flabby body
  • my kids school (and teachers)
I am sure I am missing some things to be thankful for (pretty much everything in my life), but I will tell you about the above list.

for some reason I have the next part highlighted...don't know why and don't know how to get rid of it, sorry!

FAMILY...




I got a big one! I am not sure that anyone of my parents or grandparents set out to give me such a large family, but here it is and I love it! I have two sisters, four (half) brothers and three step-sisters; 22 Webb (first) cousins, 14 Duguid (first) cousins (I think my arithmetic is correct on those), don't ask me how many second or third cousins I have! I have a mom, dad, step-mom, step-dad, mom-in-law, dad-in-law; I have two grandmas & one grandpa who I still get to visit with; I have four of the world's most amazing children (of course I am a little biased); I have two other entire families from my step-parents who have made me feel nothing less than part of their families; I have two entire families from my in-laws as well! (Are you still with me?)...plus everywhere I turn in my little town, I am related to someone!! Life is good when you have family around...my life is great because of it!

HUSBAND...
 You couldn't find two people who were more opposite than Greg & me!  We have worked out pretty good though!  I bring the loose, liberal, free-spirit parts to our marriage and he brings the structured, conservative, A-type personality to it!  We are like peanut butter and jelly, the two of us!  He loves me for who I am, what I look like and even for how much of his hard earned money I spend!!  He's a keeper!

CHILDREN...

What more can I say about my children than they are the most wonderul things that ever happened to me!?!?!  I have had children under my roof and in my arms since I was 16 years old and I can't imagine a life any different than that!  There has never been a job I wanted to do more than being a mother!  I will run through what I am most thankful about each one of my children...

Natalie: I am so thankful that even though she is turning 18 in two short weeks, she has not really given us too much grief as parents!  She may have a messy room and a forgetful mind, but we sure got lucky in the teenager stage of her life!  She has been a great kid and I know she will be a great adult!

Mark:  I am so thankful that Mark is a smart, artistic, sentsitive kid!  He loves his momma more than anything and even though he doesn't really like me to give him kisses, he still lets me!  He is almost 8 years old and I am so excited to watch him grow into the wonderful young man I know he will be!

Grace:  I am thankful that even though I call her a "diva", she really isn't one!  Grace is a 6 year old girl with very independent personality!  I know that she will grow up to be someones boss and I am sure that after she gives us a run for our money as a teenager, I will have no problem cutting those apron strings!  She will have no problem leaving the nest either!!

Will:  I am thankful that he LOVES being my baby!  I am sooooooo thankful that this little boy of mine is so perfectly perfect after all the issues he went through as a baby (you will read all about these issues on November 30, when I blog about his birthday).  I am so thankful for the funny things that come out of his mouth.  I am so thankful for the idea that he will never want to leave the nest...but I am sure if you ask me in twenty years I will be ready to push him right out of the tree...but for right now, as a three year old boy, I am so thankful!


HOUSE:  We live in a big, warm, not-even-close-to-being-paid-for house and I am so thankful for that!


FRIENDS:  I have the world's greatest friends!  You know who you are, and I thank you for being my friend! 

AEROSMITH:  Thank you Steven, Joe, Tom, Brad & Joey for coming together long before I was even born and creating America's greatest rock and roll band (and if you are laughing at me right now for typing that, just Google it...it's right there in black & white!); Thank you for making me the crazy fan who knows every little detail of your life; Thank you for my first born sons middle name (Tyler); Thank you for making my 30th birthday the best a girl could ever have; Thank you Joey for the drum sticks that now hang in my craft Aerosmith room that you passed to me and Amy at the very first concert I was ever at; Thank you Steven for doing American Idol so that the whole wide world can see why I have been so crazy for you for the past 23 years!!

I will take this moment to say sorry if any of my friends are offended that Aerosmith got a much longer blurb than they did...you know I love you too!!

FOOD: do I really need to elaborate?

FLABBY BODY:  I am thankful for this flabby body of mine because I means I have lots of food to eat! 

KIDS SCHOOL:  My kids (the two who are in school) attend Vermilion Elementery School (V.E.S.) and that is the school that I attended from grade 1 - 3 when I lived here.  It is a great school with wonderful teachers - one who just happens to fall into that "Duguid first cousin" category I mentioned earlier!  My kids teacher this year are Sandy Birch and Rebecca McCullough.  Ms. Birch is Grace's teacher (and was Mark's last year) and I don't think I could ask for a better grade one teacher!  She teaches the way that I think - no extra pressure on these little people...I love it!  Mrs. McCullough is the teacher who Mark wanted and got this year!  She is a lovely woman who is very artistic and that is exactly what Mark needs!  He came home from school with 4 thanksgiving crafts!!  She is right up his alley!  Mrs. Bonnie Bauer is the music teacher at V.E.S. and she has been teaching music there since i was in school there!!  She might just be the most wonderful human being on earth!  She is lovely, kind, sweet, wonderful!  I can't go on about the entire staff, so I will just say that my kids are so lucky to have such a wonderul school to call their own!

So many things in my life and this world that I am thankful for...those are just a few!

Happy Thanksgiving!

SJ

P.S. Thank you for reading my blog!  I am thankful to know that people actually like what I have to say!

Monday, September 26, 2011

My grandma and your grandma

My grandma and your grandma
Were sittin' by the fire.
My grandma told your grandma
"I'm gonna set your flag on fire"

[Chorus:]
Hey now! Hey now!
Iko, Iko, unday
Jockamo feeno ai nan?
Jockamo fee nan?


I have had this song in my head today because I have been thinking about grandma's and being a grandma (don't worry, I am not going to be a grandma right now!!) and what grandma's do.  When I think about grandma's I think about cinnamon buns...not sure why, it just seems like a grandmotherly thing to do!  I can't sew, can't knit, can't bake bread (well, I guess I can make sweet breads now!), can't crochet, can't keep my house clean worth a darn...just can't seem to do those grandma things!  I am a little worried that one day when I am a grandma I will not be able to offer my grandkids these wonderful memories and keepsakes like my own grandmothers did...so I decided to start making cinnamon buns!  Today Will and I put on our aprons and pulled out the Purity cookbook and made cinnamon buns!  I told Will that this will be our special thing to do (I guess it's a motherly thing to do too) each week - and I better start giving away some of these sweet treats or my weight loss dreams will be once again be put on hold!  I figure if I start learning how to make these buns now, by the time I am a grandma, I will have them perfected! 

Maybe I will take on knitting next!

SJ

Friday, September 23, 2011

It has been a while...

Hello Stranger!  It has been a while since my fingers have hit the keyboard for anything more than checking Facebook!  I had a very sweet message for me on Facebook from my big sister - she said she missed my blog!!  So, I decided to sit down right now, with five children running amok (and one of them has a very strong aroma to them!) to let you know what's been happening in my life lately!

My three year old son is a Playschool drop-out after only four classes!  I signed him up for playschool this year (with the intention of him going for two years), two mornings a week.  The very first day he told me that the "Blue Circle Boy" was bugging him - they all have a coloured shape on a pin to help them identify their lockers and such - and I thought it was just a one time thing, so I didn't make a big fuss about it.  For the next three classes he complained that this boy (who shall remain un-named) was being very mean and he didn't want to go to playschool anymore.  I thought about just putting him in on the other two days they run, but then I found out the real reason for this change of heart - Zachary!!  Zachary is one of my day home boys, who has been with us for almost two years!  Will has grown up with Zachary and they are attatched at the hip!  I don't think Will knows how to function Monday through Friday without Zachary...so I decided that it was not worth the fight to take him to playschool for this "bonus" year, and we will enroll him in plasychool next year, with Zachary!  (and if he really doesn't want to go then, well that's okay too...playschool itself is really just a bonus in life!).

Speaking of signing kids up for things, let me tell you about last weekend!! 

Saturday morning we went to our towns "registration day" at the mall - the day when all the different organizations get together in one central place for registrations. Grace had told me a few weeks ago that she wanted to take skating this year and I figured that would be the perfect thing for all three of the little kids to do - kill three birds with one stone, I figured! The boys were up for it, which actually surprised me a little since Mark is terrified of even touching ice with any kind of footwear other than sturdy winter boots - so I was eager to enroll them! We got to the mall and I felt like my head was about to explode because of a lovely head cold I had and Grace wouldn't let go of my hand the entire time, even when I was trying to fill out the forms and my boys only wanted to go to the pet store and to get icecream...oh, what I great time it was! Once I finally was able to get Grace to stand on her own I started to fill out the forms but as soon as I had put her name on one page she burst into tears and started saying she no longer wanted to skate!! She asked me what days skating was on, and I said Monday & Wednesday - she cried even more (I think because she is a worry wart and thought it was going to cut into her playdate with her best friend that coming Monday, after school!!). I did not have it in me to try to calm her down and all I could see was my future Mondays & Wednesdays: I would drag anywhere between 3 and 6 kids (depending on my day home kids) to the rink, clad in snowsuits and mitts...each carrying their skates (more like me carrying three pairs of skates)...and me, sweating with my glasses falling down my nose as I try to wedge my childrens feet into their brand spanking new, stiff as a board, skates...then I would have to tie all three pairs, as my children have only ever been exposed to velcro, and I haven't tied a pair of skates in many, many years! Did I mention I will only have 15 minutes to do this all in? Skating starts at 4:15 p.m., my kids bus pulls up to our house at 3:50 p.m. and by the time we actually get to the rink it will be 4:00! The one good thing about this early start time is that we would be back home, finished all three skating lessons and making supper by 5:30 p.m.!!  Even with the early supper start, I have decided to forgo skating lessons and just take my kids (and my husband) to public skating instead!  No pressure, no fundraising, no worries!

One of the reasons I have been away from my blog for so long is because I had to catch up on my t.v. shows from last year before this week when all the shows started up again!  In just one week I managed to watch last season (the entire season) of "Parenthood", "Grey's Anatomy" and "The Good Wife"!!  As you can imagine I did NOTHING in my spare time but watch t.v.!  We don't have PVR at my house (not for lack of wanting or trying...it just has to do with our location), so if I miss a show, there is no catching up!  I am all caught up now though and last night I watched Grey's and on Sunday I will watch The Good Wife...I am sooooooooo excited!  I saw a commercial for "The Amazing Race" last night, so that will be on my list of shows, plus Criminal Minds has started up this week too!!  My t.v. plate is starting to overflow - I might have to dust off my VCR and watch my missed episodes the old fashioned way!

One wonderful thing has happened to me in the last week or so - I have started to lose weight!  I quit Weight Watchers (for about the 6th time), cancelled my Curves membership - they were both making boat loads of money off of me, without me using them at all - and I have begun to lose weight - go figure!!  I am not dieting, starving or on any plan - I have just stopped all the mindless eating!  I am still eating the same crappy way I have always eaten - no broccoli or grapefruit for me, just not so much of the same crappy stuff!  I have realized that I don't have to deprive myself of anything, I just have to know when to stop!!  If I keep this up I should be a back to my pre-Will weight by early 2012!!

Well, I have five very grumpy little children in my house and three of them are going to have naps (ah, I love the sound of that!)...so off I go to change diapers, tuck kids in and clean my oh, so messy house!!

SJ

P.S. just incase you are wondering, I did change the very fragrant child a few paragraphs ago!!!

Wednesday, August 31, 2011

My Favourite day of the year :)

It was only two short months ago that I said I was so happy to be packing the last school lunch of the year...well, now I am so happy that I got to pack the first school lunch of the year today!!!  Yes, it is that time of year again, the time when the leaves start changing colour, the days are getting a little cooler, the time when you have to put a sweater on to go outside, the time when I no longer have whiny children all day long (well, except those who are still too young to go to school yet)...yes, it's back to school!!

Mark is off to grade 2 - Mrs. McCullough is his teacher and he has never been so happy!  Grace is in grade 1- Ms. Birch is her teacher and she too is soooooo very happy about this!  I watched them get on the bus this morning, camera in hand and not a tear in my eye this year!  I sometimes feel a little bit bad with the fact that I don't have any sadness about them going off to school, but then I remember why - they drove me CRAZY all summer long!!  I love my kids, don't get me wrong, however two months of them being together 24 hours a day is enough! 

This was the first year since 1998 that I didn't have to send Natalie off to school - she is going to work today instead.  It felt a little odd not taking a picture of her this morning, but I am sure she was thrilled with this fact!

Next week I will take Will to playschool for the first time - I get teared up just thinking about this one...that will be a hard day for me. 

I can't wait until after school when the big yellow bus pulls up and the kids bring me all the notes and permission slips that come with the first day of school.  I love this day!!

SJ
Mark - first day of Grade 2

Grace - first day of Grade 1



Off to school they go!



Sunday, August 21, 2011

The Power of Song (or Love if it's by Celine)!

I got up at about 2:30 in the morning and can't seem to sleep (probably because half of my children are now sleeping in my room!) and I have a song stuck in my head!  I was trying my best to fall asleep, but this song just keeps playing over and over and over...

My friends called today, down from L.A.
They were shootin' pool all night and sleepin' half the day
They said I could crash if I could find my own way
I told them you were leaving on a bus to go away

That's alright, that's OK
We were two kids in love tryin' to find our way
That's alright, that's OK
Held our dreams in our hands, let our minds run away
That's alright, that's OK
We were walkin' through some youth, smilin' through some pain
That's alright, let's turn the page
   
And remember what I say, and it goes this way

Girl, don't go away mad  Girl, just go away!


...if you do not happen to know that song (and not know the tune, therefore probably not getting it stuck in your head for three hours), it is "Don't go away mad" by Motley Crue.

As I was was lying in my bed (which by the way, I had to Google "lying" vs. "laying" which could become an entire blog post in itself...who knew!) with this song in my head I got thinking about the power of songs (and the "Power of Love" by Celine) and couldn't help but reminisce a little!  I am sure you must have those songs in your life that take you back to an exact moment in life.  It is amazing how a song can transport you back in time - and how you can seem to remember every lyric of the song!  Here are a few of my memory songs:

  • "I don't want to miss a thing" Aerosmith - My wedding day (it was our first dance song).
  • "Brown Eyed Girl" Van Morrison - High School dance with Kurt Richter
  • "My Sharona" The Knack - Driving around in Jody Dickou's car with Rayna B.
  • "Man in Motion" Warren Haynes - Rick Hanson coming through Wetaskiwin (not my uncle, but the guy in the wheelchair)
  • "Push it" Salt-N-Pepa - an airband put on by some girls in my grade 5 class (even in grade 5 we knew this song was not appropriate for grade 5!!)
  • "Seduce Me Tonight" Cycle V (Flashdance soundtrack) - my Mother!!  She made this mixed tape for my sister, Amy, when I was about 6 or 7 years old and this was my favourite song on it!  I remember her telling me not to sing it out in public...but what did I know, I was only 6 or 7!
  • "Neutron Dance" - my sisters and our brown living room curtains in the house on Park Drive in Vermilion!!
Okay, memory lane can go on forever, but hopefully I will be nice a cozy (and sound asleep) in my bed soon, so we will exit the lane right now!

I am the kind of person who listens to all of the lyrics in a song, and if I can't figure them out, I google them!  I drives me nuts not to know them - how else am I supposed to sing my heart out if I don't know the words??  Greg is the kind of person though who doesn't listen to the lyrics, just the music (not sure how that's possible) but every once in a while he will say to me: "have you heard the words to that song?"...ya, of course I have! 

My kids love some songs that might not be the best for kids to love, such as "Baby Got Back" by Sir Mix-a-Lot...but then again, "Seduce Me Tonight" may not have been the best for kids and I turned out just fine!!

Well, I am going to hit the hay, trying not to step on or roll over any of my naughty-song-loving-kids as I try to get some sleep!

Good Night

Now it's time to say good night
Good night Sleep tight
Now the sun turns out his light
Good night Sleep tight
Dream sweet dreams for me
Dream sweet dreams for you.

Close your eyes and I'll close mine
Good night Sleep tight
Now the moon begins to shine
Good night Sleep tight
Dream sweet dreams for me
Dream sweet dreams for you.

Close your eyes and I'll close mine
Good night Sleep tight
Now the sun turns out his light
Good night Sleep tight
Dream sweet dreams for me
Dream sweet dreams for you.

Good night Good night Everybody
Everybody everywhere
Good night.


(The Beatles)


SJ




Thursday, August 11, 2011

I was floored!

I just had one of those profound moments in life: a "light bulb moment" or an
"uh-huh moment" as our iconic talk show hosts might refer to them. 

Here is what happened...a grandma of one of my day home kids came to pick up her little granddaugther today.  She also happens to be related to me, so in some ways I felt even more embarrased by the state of my house and the fact that her granddaughter was so dirty from playing outside all day.  I gave her the little girls shoes in the living room, near my front door, and she said she would make sure the little girl did not walk on my floors, as to not spread the dirt around.  I looked at her and said "look at my floors, they are awful already...I can't stand them" (I then went on to say that I regret getting laminate floors and wished for real hardwood).  Her response surprised me a little, as I wasn't expecting someone to be so very understanding about the reasons behind my dirty floors and to have such good reasons for why I should be happy with what I have. 

She said this: "Sara, you don't want hardwood right now, not with little kids.  Wait until your kids are grown up and you have more money to spend.  (this next part is what I found so profound) You are so lucky to have this beautiful house with so much room and a big yard, you even have air conditioning.  I lived in a trailer for 25 years and not once did my kids ever complain about it and say they wanted a house to live in.  They don't think about it that way, they don't care what their house, or their floors look like. Your kids will not ever complain aobut the house they lived in as kids, even when they are eighty, they will never say they wanted more as kids."

The thing that made this conversation so much more than it was is that I was just told this past weekend that this woman has MS and is, at times, in so much pain she can't even function.  I am not sure how bad her MS is or what the future will hold for her, but I could see in her eyes that she takes nothing for granted in life.  I realized that I take far too much in my life for granted: healthy children, a loving husband, a beautiful house, food on my fridge every day, etc. 

For now on I will look at my dirty laminate floors in a totally different way.  When I look at them I will no longer see them only as a cheaper version of the floors that I really wanted, but they are the place that my children play, the place that my family sits, the place where my job gives me so much joy each day...they are not just floors, they are the foundation of my childrens life...even if they are filthy!

SJ

Saturday, July 30, 2011

Second day at fair....

Well as promised I took the kids to the fair again yesterday - but not for rides, just games and fair food!  My children started bugging me about going at about 7:00 a.m. and wouldn't you know it, nothing at the fair opens until 11:00 and the games (and rides) don't start until 1:00 p.m.!!!  At 11:00 I told them to get in the vehicle so we could go to a pancake breakfast - which actaully ended at 11:00, but it was at my friends husband's business, so they gave us what was left of the pancakes and sausage!  We ate there and then headed down to the fairgrounds were we would check out the trade show, school art, exhibit hall, etc.  We found the school art first and found a picture Grace had made, but unfortunately Mark's teacher didn't enter any of their work.  We wandered around the trade show (not that there was much to see there this year), and Mark saw a table full of watches.  We stopped (really just to kill time) and he started trying on different watches...very pretty watches!  He really, really wanted this green one with sparkles all around the face - and even though the lady selling it told him it was a girls watch, he still really wanted it!  He ended up getting a different green one (still a girls), but it didn't have sparkles!  It has hands, instead of digital, so I wasn't sure how he would do with it, but he knew exactly how to tell when it was 1:00 p.m.!!!  We wandered over to the exhibit hall and the kids got to see some of the enteries - and I told them that starting next year, they would all be entering some things.  Finally Mark alerted me that it was now time for the games and we wandered down to the midway.  My kids each brought their wallets, full of money (and I brought mine full too) and we started off with Will playing the balloon popping game.  I don't think he popped any - or had any understanding that the $5.00 of his allowance he just paid to do that will never see the inside of his wallet again!!  Grace played too (twice) and popped almost every balloon!!  She won a lovely little stuffed puppy...LOL!  They all played the hammer game and won some fantastic squeaky giant hammers....LOL again!  Grace and Will fished for some sharks and got some little stuffed dogs and all the while Mark was holding out (and holding onto his money) for the game where you could win the BIG prize!!  He decided to try his luck at the game where you throw the balls into the bucket (which seems like an easy concept, but really isn't that easy).  The carny was really nice and gave him three practice shots.  He then asked Mark if he wanted to play the $5.00 game or the $10.00 game - that's the one where you get to win a BIG prize!  Of course Mark said he would spend the $10.00, so he gave him the money and started throwing balls.  He got two out of three balls in, and the carny said: "what prize would you like, you can pick ANYTHING we have!!"...well, Mark was over the moon with this fact!  He picked the biggest stuffed dog imaginable!  I thought that seemed pretty easy, so I asked Grace if she wanted to try for one of the big pink stuffies and of course she said yes!  She paid $10.00 and started throwing her balls - not getting any of them in.  The carny then said to her: "Thanks for playing" and walked away!  I asked him about the prize (I thought that because you pay them ten dollars, you get something) and he said that you have to get the balls in...those are the rules!  Grace looked like she was ready to cry, but I told her that is how games work and figured that is a good lesson in life, so we moved on to the shark fishing again!!  She paid another $5.00 and traded her little puppy in for a bigger prize - not that it was that much bigger though!

After we had spent almost all of the kids allowance - and all of mine - on games, we got some cotton candy, lemonade and mini donuts (and I had to borrow $5.00 from Grace to buy the donuts)!  Will threw a lovely fit in middle of the midway because he wanted to go on the rides again and I had had enough of the fair for another year so I told them we were done and leaving, and it was only 2:30 p.m.!! 

Greg stays in our RV across the road from the fairgrounds, along with a whole lot of other people, and the boys want to stay over there tonight (Saturday) so they can see the fireworks....but we'll see if they change their minds when they find out they can't go on any rides or play any games!! 

I will not even entertain the thought of going to the grounds today because Saturday is always the busiest day of the fair and I would not be able to handle it for a third day in a row!!

I look so forward to the fair each year, but once I have had my fill of it, then I look so forward to it being over for another year!!

SJ


Grace's turtle is the one above her head.


Mark hammering for a big squeaky hammer!


Will & Grace trying their luck for a squeaky hammer!
(they all ended up with them - yay!)


Will can throw candy off a float far better than he can throw darts!
                                                                                       
Grace is a pro at dart throwing!



I think I can, I think I can, I think I can...


I DID IT!!
Meet "Bully", Mark's new gigantic stuffy!!!

Grace about to try for a big prize, but it wasn't it the cards today!!